Humans are Terrible

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That’s the conclusion I came to this week. The week has challenged me as a Christian. It’s a, “Jesus come quickly,” kind of week. People carry their baggage around their necks like medals. Their needs are more important than another person’s and everything is demanded right now.

What’s far more difficult is seeing an atheist get a version of Christianity that is the exception not the rule. I watched this “Christian” show a lack of self-control while she posted stickers that talked about God on her car bumper while showing a complete disregard for the truth.

Yet, it is also a reminder that we are in need of a Savior.

If you work with non-believers, it’s important to remember to act ethically, make good decisions, and acknowledge when you are wrong and make it right. We are not works-based and the reflection of Christ will be a poor one, but for some non-believers, our choices are the only reflection of Jesus they will see.

Non-believers won’t differentiate between false cults and religions, cultural Christians, bad theology, or what it means to be Christian. People don’t often come to Christ squeaky clean, but soiled and in need of a Savior. Their journey begins at that moment. Born again is perfectly described in John 3. We are babies. We thrive on soft theology until we get to solid foods and grow closer to our Lord.

S.M. likes to say, “I don’t like humans.” This week I am in hearty agreement. Conclusion: We are all in need of a Savior every day. 

What confuses you about Christians?

 

 

You are Not Lost

I took the wrong path on my walk yesterday. The wet winter caused the trail to become overgrown after the snow melted. Others had lost their way, too, carving out a new trail down towards the creek and across it. When the snows melted, the trail appeared to split. I chose to take the split not realizing it would dead end a mile into the trail. 

Footprints in the dirt show people turning around. It reminded me how it is easy to take the wrong path. Everyone else took it so it must be right! Go with the crowd. Walk where others have walked. But what if everyone in your friend circle are going the wrong way? 

You can email me if you feel a little lost: sistersarah40@yahoo.com. 

Surrender Not Self-Reliance

Sitting in traffic with my eyes squinting against the glare of the chrome bumper in front of me, I am reminded once again of my lack of control of circmstances around me. My window is rolled down and I feel the heat rise from the asphalt. The seconds are ticking by and my anxiety is rising. 

I waited til the last minute to leave again. Ten minutes from my destination and I am stuck five cars from a light that won’t change. 

It reminds me of a conversation I had with Sam. 

“Take the Lord out of it,” He said and plunged into the topic we were discussing. His words, “Take the Lord out of it,” reminded me of his focus on being the king and decision maker of his life; of relying on himself. It was hard to believe he said that after just starting to attend church for the past two months. 

Surrender didn’t happen with me until a few years into my walk with Christ. I keep saying this to myself, because he is still making decisions on his strength alone. Surrender is truly falling to our knees and letting go your desire to control everything around you. 

It’s walking with God’s guidance. It’s accepting His invitation to come into His presence. It’s the calm that stills the sea. It prepares you for moments when you are stuck in a situation where you have no control. 

Do you need to pray with someone? Email: sistersarah40@yahoo.com. 

Forgive Yourself #LDS #Christian

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Sure, you did something wrong.

You even hate yourself for it.

You relive it over and over and over and over again.

Somehow, it doesn’t make you feel any better.

You’ve apologized.

You’ve sent gifts.

You’ve sent guilt gifts and spent “guilt” time with them.

Nothing absolves you.

Yin Yang and Karma would have us believe doing more good will offset the bad.

You keep doing more good things.

But even your doing has an agenda, so it is really good?

Easter is coming. Won’t you try talking to a Pastor? 

Find absolution, not in doing good things, giving gifts, or running from the pain of guilt, but in Jesus.  This year, instead of going to church on Easter (your once a year gig) because of guilt, why not talk to a pastor? Call them. Schedule an appointment with them. Tell them about your guilt. Tell them why you don’t have a relationship with Jesus.

Ask your questions. 

Ask me questions. Ask me for help in finding a church or let me help connect you with a pastor?

Email: sistersarah40@yahoo.com

Talk to me. 

My Little Window

I changed offices. 

My new office has a window on the second story. When I crack open the blinds, I can watch people take their lunch breaks, the snow fall like feathers from the sky, or see Spring blossom. This gives me a beautiful breather as I sift through piles of paperwork. 

Escape isn’t always stepping outside or getting in your car, but gazing out a window and imagining where you could be right now. Coping skills come in all sorts of sizes and shapes, but mine is a little window. My hours have changed, too.

This will allow me to take walks in the afternoon. Maybe things will become more normal? What is normal anyway? 

Sanctuary Sunday

I feel like that young woman in the half marathon who hits her wall a few hundred feet from the finish line. It’s been that kind of week. 

My email small group didn’t quite pan out. I will be updating this week a new way we can connect, but I’d love to hear how you would like to connect as a small group with Life Church. I can’t do live video as I won’t reveal my identity. I do care about you. 

My heart is for those who no longer believe in the Mormon god, but have questions. My heart is for those who are Mormon and have questions. So, how would you like to meet every week to discuss the Life Church sermons or videos? 

Whatsapp?

Google Chat/Hangout?

Facebook kicked me out because I wouldn’t prove who I am, but you can be sure that Life Church did a background check on me. I am a safe person to talk to. I don’t want meaningless or shallow conversation. I want to go deep with you. 

Email me: sistersarah40@yahoo.com 

Even in Drought #LDS 

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8

Our life has been a year of drought. S.M. looks at the outside of the house and gives one of his heavy sighs. He makes a complete circle around the property, kicking at the dilapidated bush that can’t decide if it is alive or dead. I can see his mental list: paint, more paint, and sanding. 

The money we would have put towards re-painting of the house went to something more urgent. We both made that choice. I wonder if he regrets that choice. He never says so. 

A few minutes and the back door slides open and closed. I hear the water running in the kitchen and he emerges where I am dusting in the living room. He holds a glass of water. Sweat beads on his forehead from the hot afternoon. Spring has come with a vengeance! 

“I love you.” He says to me. 

I hug him and plant a kiss on his cheek. “I love you, too.” 

Jeremiah says, “It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” The Lord is faithful and will provide the paint.